it's called a break up cuz it's broken

everyone can relate to the aching feeling your heart gets after a break up. it's one of the worst feelings in the world, but it won't kill you. you're supposed to fall in love and fall out of love a couple times in your life, it's what makes finding the right one worth it.

i am currently going through a heartbreak. actually, i've been going through this break up for a while now but it finally all came to an end. i'm struggling even writing this because i really thought this was going to be it for me, i was going to marry moto and live our lives the best we could. it's not until after we broke up that i realized he wasn't the one for me, my mind was blinded by love - so cliche, but it's true - and i wasn't seeing the guy everyone else was. if your family and friends are begging you to leave the guy you're with, he's probably not the right guy for you. when everyone around you can see the reason you love your partner and they encourage the relationship, that's healthy. i wasn't in a healthy relationship and i kept saying to myself 'it's going to get better' over and over again. reality is, it never did and it never was going to. i was holding on to hope that someone was going to change for me and i didn't want to realize that what i saw was what i got.
so, i got some words of wisdom from the last place i ever thought i'd learn anything from, a reality show. girls are always searching for closure and the thing we don't realize is that closure doesn't mean going to your ex and talking to him one last time or anything of that sort. closure is between you and yourself. so this show pretty much said to write a letter to your ex, get out everything you have inside of you; your feelings, the pain, the happiness, then either tie it to a balloon and let it go, or burn the letter. when you let go of everything you had, you're making room for happiness to come in.

i'm going to try that because i do feel like i have a lot held in and i just want to let everything go and start something new. if any of you are going through a break up or have advice, feel free to share with me because i can sure use it.

Lab overload

okay, so a little about me, i'm a crazy dog lady. well, not super super crazy, i'm just mostly really into labs. moto and i have been contemplating adopting a lab puppy as a love child. i've been telling him i want one for the longest time and he's been telling me that we would need a house of our own first. if you're anything like me, you don't want to hear anything negative, you just want what you want. so i dedicated this post to the thing i want most... a lab puppy. 

and that last picture will be our wedding picture :)

time for introductions

so, i think it's time to let y'all in on who moto is because he's a big part of my life and i'll be writing about him more and more. 


so when i started this blog, i was dating my ex, but what you don't know is that i was dating moto before him. see, we haven't always had smooth sails - actually it's been one heck of a rollercoaster, but one thing that has never changed is how much we want to make 'us' work. i'm a huge believer that if two people who have broken up still have hope that they can make it work, then they should try until they can't anymore. i'm so happy that even through everything, moto and i still have the same love for each other. 


this is by no means a fairytale love story where guy meets girl, girl falls in love, they live happily ever after. our story has a little more nooks and grooves than just that, but nonetheless... here we are, three years later and still madly in love with each other. 


i know it sounds so cliche to say that your man makes you laugh and thats why you love him, but it's true! moto is constantly making me laugh. he always has something to say about everything and that's one of the things that made me fall in love with him. he is also so easy to talk to, he makes me feel comfortable to where i can just open up completely and before i know it, i have a handful of tissue and i'm sitting on the couch pouring out my heart to him. 


i have always told myself that i would be so lucky to end up with my best friend, but the truth is, i'm luckier to have found moto and, throughout our relationship, find a best friend in him. sorry for sounding so cheesy.


anyways, without further a-do...

ta-da! meet moto, aka my boyfriend, aka my best friend, aka james :)

Catch up day.

Yikes! I should really stop lagging on writing posts, I promise to find more time for you guys : )

What did you guys do this weekend? Anything fun planned? Or maybe even some unexpected surprises? My weekend was pretty quiet - for the most part.

Thursday was St. Patty's Day! Happy St. Patty's Day to all of you by the way, better late than never right? I went downtown with a girlfriend of mine and had a blast! We didn't drink green beer but it's okay, we managed without it! 

I have a green bracelet on.

Friday I decided to stay in for the night with the family. I wasn't in a 'going-out' mood. PJ's and a movie were all I needed to be happy. On Saturday, my friend woke me up at the crack of noon (I love my sleep) and invited me to go watch him ride. I'm really into motocross so I decided to wake up, get ready and head out to some local dunes. Lucky for him, I packed my camera and got some pretty cool pictures of him : )

For the sake of future posts having to do with him, let's call him Moto. Pretty fitting, right? He's one sarcastic, crazy, fun-to-be around guy. 


I was getting jealous of Moto riding around so I wanted to ride too. Keep in mind that I didn't have ANY gear on, I was wearing a black romper with my Vans. I put on my brothers helmet and jumped on the bike. 

Result:

I ended up riding on loose gravel. I went to turn around and pushed the throttle too hard and the bike went out from under me, causing me to fall off it. The wonderful peg on the side of the bike stabbed my leg a little and made me bleed. Never again. I learned my lesson completely and I won't ever jump on the dirtbike without proper gear on. Don't be mad at Moto, he wasn't there when I had the bright idea of jumping on the bike... he came back to my leg bleeding, haha. 


Sunday was homework day. I sat on my bed and caught up on all my homework I was assigned before Spring Break. So happy that's over with!


Today while I was at school I was surprisingly giddy. No bad case of the Mondays for me, I handled today with a smile! Mostly because of some simple things that put me in a good mood. 

1. Blue Machine Naked Juice 

and the cute little phrase it had on the back. 

I was definitely on the happy train today, choo-choo!

2. I wore my favorite belt!

I have a tremendous love for over sized buckles

and Michael Kors won over my heart with this belt

What simple pleasure can turn YOUR day around?!

Hope you all have a wonderful night : ) 

Until next time!