I come and go as I please...

apparently i feel like i can just waltz in and out of your lives - to whoever actually reads my posts - and i'm sorry! i dont know who i think i am right now, but it will stop... hopefully.
i have so much to write about, i haven't been able to vent in so long! okay so i had to reread some posts to figure out where i'm at with yall. moto and i broke up, i started talking to this guy from irvine, ca. he was a nice guy, but we were too different. after him, i dated here and there... nothing serious, just having fun.. then BAM! he hit me like a ton of bricks - not literally - he was one of the most gorgeous guys my eyes have ever seen. looks are a huge factor, but they're not everything. this guy was chivalrous, he was romantic, he was suave, he was a cowboy - enough said. we went on a date, then another and another and another, back to back, day by day, we wanted to see more and more of each other. well, that was a month ago and i'm happy to report that we are still in our honey moon stage. i kid you not, every single day is better than the last. he asked me to be his girlfriend on our 3rd date and it's been heaven ever since. i was always the type to think people who got married after knowing each other a few weeks were crazy but now i know what love like that feels like. it's amazing. i'm on cloud 9. we both know that we're going to end up getting married to each other, it's inevitable. so with that said, meet Sean xo

till next time!

Draw Something

so there's this app for iphones that i am incredibly obsessed with. draw something. it's like playing pictionary every single day, and i loved that game when i was younger! this game is seriously so much fun and if you have it already, start a game with me @elenavillalobos because i'm always looking for new people to play with. right now my biggest competitor is my new love interest and he is the worst drawer in the history of drawing (yes, he knows he is too, i'll give you an example at the end of this post). and no, i'm not trying to pretend like this love interest is just an every day thing by not mentioning him more in this post, but things are very new and very exciting right now. i just don't want to jinx anything, but he is fabulous and wonderful so far :)

back to draw something. let's play!

and at last, this is why i say that mr. wonderful is a horrible drawer...

haha, i should give him more credit, he drew this late at night and he was tired but it cracked me up so i posted it :) lets just hope he never sees this. 

until next time!

it's called a break up cuz it's broken

everyone can relate to the aching feeling your heart gets after a break up. it's one of the worst feelings in the world, but it won't kill you. you're supposed to fall in love and fall out of love a couple times in your life, it's what makes finding the right one worth it.

i am currently going through a heartbreak. actually, i've been going through this break up for a while now but it finally all came to an end. i'm struggling even writing this because i really thought this was going to be it for me, i was going to marry moto and live our lives the best we could. it's not until after we broke up that i realized he wasn't the one for me, my mind was blinded by love - so cliche, but it's true - and i wasn't seeing the guy everyone else was. if your family and friends are begging you to leave the guy you're with, he's probably not the right guy for you. when everyone around you can see the reason you love your partner and they encourage the relationship, that's healthy. i wasn't in a healthy relationship and i kept saying to myself 'it's going to get better' over and over again. reality is, it never did and it never was going to. i was holding on to hope that someone was going to change for me and i didn't want to realize that what i saw was what i got.
so, i got some words of wisdom from the last place i ever thought i'd learn anything from, a reality show. girls are always searching for closure and the thing we don't realize is that closure doesn't mean going to your ex and talking to him one last time or anything of that sort. closure is between you and yourself. so this show pretty much said to write a letter to your ex, get out everything you have inside of you; your feelings, the pain, the happiness, then either tie it to a balloon and let it go, or burn the letter. when you let go of everything you had, you're making room for happiness to come in.

i'm going to try that because i do feel like i have a lot held in and i just want to let everything go and start something new. if any of you are going through a break up or have advice, feel free to share with me because i can sure use it.